the sinner in me
2009 Resolutions
Keep studying
Be a great boyfriend, and a good son
Be more all-rounded
Stop shrinking and start growing again
Be able to answer to myself
My Second Wind
I fear stagnation and lack of progress. I fear never reaching my potential and being average. I fear being forgotten. The past. Yesterday's news. I fear giving up and being passed by, going softly into that good night. I fear letting those I love down, letting myself down. I fear settling, giving in to the "that's just the way it is" mindset. I fear dying without leaving my mark. I fear not feeling these fears anymore and just floating along. These fears feed me, they nourish my drive.
I love my fear.
stop.
the fallen saint left at 7:57 pm
i should start off by saying i'm not perfect. when it comes to social relations and academics, there are many things i can learn and improve on. i may not always make the best decisions, but it doesn't stop me from trying, and it doesn't stop me from attempting to achieve the results i desire.
the fallen saint left at 11:28 pm my first week of the new semester's gone past in a flash. it hardly feels as though school's in yet.
the fallen saint left at 1:49 am
if there hadn't been rumours of an iphone nano i'd be owning an iphone 3g by now.
the fallen saint left at 12:42 pm i read an article about apple and criticisms on its lack of truly open source characteristics. here's a rebuke that made me laugh.
the fallen saint left at 10:49 am
Sunday, January 11, 2009
turn it around
just stop all of this.let's rewind and go back to happy days when the best of our memories were made.forget the stress, forget the disagreements, forget the frustrations. let me try again. let me try to take us back to the time when we would look at each other and burst out laughing, or smile stupidly at the other person for no apparent reason. let me try to go back to when we would get through days on end without a temper lost.because that's what i think we ought to have, that's what i think we deserve, and that's what's best for our relationship.i love you my baby, much much very very long long time. always.
Saturday, January 10, 2009
first things first
i think you're too easily swayed. your heart is too soft, and your determination regarding a lot of things is questionable. on these issues, and a few others, i do not see eye to eye with you. it's fine if you are doing alright with the things you set yourself out to do, but if things aren't going your way, you ought to reconsider how you're going about doing things, because if it's broken then it bloody needs some fixing.maybe i just don't get you. i don't understand why you make the decisions that you do, i can't fathom the gulf in mentality between us. perhaps the rationale guiding our choices is too different. disagreeing with the choices you make so often is very tiring for me, and it is a huge distraction. i really wish you would help yourself.if we can't see eye to eye, it means we can't looking at the same thing.
blurry
having said that, this semester seems to have all the makings of a splash-and-dash. there'll probably be so many things going on that i won't have much time for a breather. i don't like all the negative talk about there being 4 core modules and that this makes the semester very taxing. giving up without even trying is not acceptable to me. i'll do what i can to make the best of this semester.i'd like to think i have a good idea of what i'm getting myself into, but even if i don't, so what? if i fall below my expectations, then i will know where i need to improve on. if i succeed, this will be another feather in my cap.seniors say this will be a major juggling effort. i say, bring it on.
Saturday, January 03, 2009
argh
macworld please come sooner.
laughs
"As for the person insisting about everything having to be open source. Let's open source your job where you get a paycheck and let everyone in the world that feels like it do your work for you and put you out of a job so you have no income coming in."nothing comes for free, pricks. suppliers and producers wouldn't be able to maintain their operations otherwise, and you'd be left with nothing to pick from come tomorrow.